A Sabbath Poem (Robbins)

A MILESTONE
~ by Jessica Robbins, CA

I find myself living opposites at the same time
Healthier and stronger than I ever thought possible
Spent and weaker than I ever expected

“I have longed to tell my story and pour my tears to you
Or just sit silently
With pain too heavy to hold on my own.”

I have done things I am ashamed of
I fail my own ideals, I believe in lies
Facing the prospect of stumbling like this for the rest of my days

I don’t live with certainty anymore
Hope is my theology, my religion
That there is a God
Who has compassion for me

Who can see
And looks

At me,
Feeling love, and not regret